So I'm starting to come to the realization that I'm not one of those "I love being pregnant" women. I have less than 10 weeks to go and I already can't wait til Zeina is no longer inside me and in our arms instead. I just want to hold her already. I want to see what she looks like. Is she going to have dark or light hair? straight of curly? Brown, green, or blue eye (we have all these colors on both sides of our immediate family)? Is she going to be happy or grumpy most the day? I want Nick to get the opportunity to get to know her and bond with her the way I've been so blessed to be able to do thus far, and I want to get to know her better than I do now. Some things I am already getting to know is that she is going to be VERY smart. An attribute I admire in Nick. She is going to love to learn and learning is going to come so natural to her. The reason I know this is because of her movements. I've mentioned before that I was able to feel her kick at 15 weeks and see her kick at 17 weeks. And now that I'm further along I can feel how strong her motor skills are and how controlled they are. I can tell by the way she moves that she's gonna be a smart kid.
I'm also starting to get really anxious about labor and the first week or two of her life as well. -sigh-. At first I was a little sad that our family wasn't going to be able to be there for the first days of her life but now I'm really glad that Nick and I are going to be able to experience labor and the first few days on our own. I think it's going to be extra special because we will be alone. Not that i don't love my family but I think having EVERYONE around right after delivery would be very overwhelming and a little frustrating cause I want us to be able to get to know our child without any distractions or interruptions. And not that I feel that our family is a bother at all, I'm sure I'd be excited if our circumstances were different where our family was close enough to just come visit for a day, but that's not the case with us now. We're gonna have family over for weeks at a time, that's a little overwhelming to us especially with a newborn around. AMEN ANYONE?
I'm also getting anxious about her getting her room done and feeling comfortable. I'm taking on projects one at a time and it seems to be working out fine so far. I'm not the type to like to do things in stages, I like things to be started and then finished all in one day if possible, so this is a little difficult for me to get used to but it's working out, I guess :D.
Yes I am a little bored at home by myself throughout the day but I also need to treasure this quiet time I've been given before baby comes. Yes I am anxious for this baby to be born but I need to rejoice in that fact that I do get to experience pregnancy because some women don't get the opportunity. And yes I wish we lived closer to our family so we can share this experience with them but God has given us an awesome opportunity to experience this blessing on our own with Him which a lot of people aren't not able to experience. :D so overall we are REALLY excited about our new life as our own new family and we wouldn't have it any other way. God is definitely in control and that's how I like it. We have a pediatrician consult in a couple days so hopefully we'll like him. More to come on that. Until next time
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